December 1st, 2001

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One of those nights.

Just chatting and sharing backrubs with friends is very nice. I explained a few of my meditative tricks, and Neighbor and I shared histories.

I had no idea that I go "out" like that when I'm doing something such as patching, or talking.
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It's sad

...You look through the old photos, and then you see the photo album you made for the couple who was going to be together forever.

They weren't.

It's still decent photography, and a very sweet story, hysterically funny if you can get past the unhappy ending...

...there are some people who won't be seeing these photos again until they're 70 or 80.

But the moment when Darkside grabbed the camera away from me, and I thought that either my camera, my film, or I was going to end up dead... he merely took a photo of me having hysterical laughter and handed back the camera.

And then when he read the ... oy. That was ...

Darkside, you're awesome, and don't ever think otherwise.
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I've gotta tell Darkside. That's our Yule celebration. An RPG at our apartment.

Are we weird or what?
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What is it with witches?

So it seems that this girl that Adam's going after is a witch also. She's cute and happy and giggly.

*sigh* She may not be as religiously tolerant as I am, though. Adam might not be able to cope with that.

Neighbor gives good backrubs, and he accepts backrubs too. Lots of cozy friend-backrubs last night. Wound up lying on the floor with my head in his lap with him petting my hair and telling me bits and pieces of his life's story.

Nice to have friends you can sleep on. The night when I couldn't sleep at home and had to go crash at Neighbor's, I was so tempted to get up crying in the middle of the night and crawl in bed with him.
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That witch we call a rose...

Amusing household moment:

Sitting down to pay bills together, Votania and I do very much resemble husband and wife. I had been wearing the disco ball dress (because now I didn't have to wear the pants in the family) and it was just an amusing moment.

Today, "[her first name] & Joan [my last name]" on the return address of a bill.

She doesn't want the last name from her biological family anymore. She's a sister of mine, so my last name will do in a pinch, when she needs a last name.

We're a family.

I wonder if she's going to consider a legal name change? I wonder if there's a way to legally adopt her as a sister? She's too old to be adopted by my parents, and anyway they have their two children and that's enough for them. There's only one person she'd ever marry, and he's living too far away from her right now.

It's going to be confusing as hell for Nephew when it comes to family. He's trying to figure out who his family is, since he's never had much in the way of a stable family.

I intend to be here for him forever, if need be. Certainly until he gets things figured out about family. If I was ever thinking about killing myself again, I couldn't. I am safe from even entertaining the passing fancy of suicide for the next fifteen years. I have a child to care for and provide for. I can't just up and abandon him. That would be worse than his "aunt" That Woman.