May 10th, 2005

running, bomb tech

Random stuff

reformat_songs does Copacabana. I need to share this anonymously with my workplace.

For me, to say that I "dislike" something is less serious than if I say I "avoid" something, because generally I can put up with things I don't like, but if I actively avoid something, I really don't like it.

Figment learned that about me vs. TV (and especially obnoxious commercials) this evening.

Chakra Test
Root: open
Sacral: open
Navel: open
Heart: open
Throat: over-active
Third Eye: open
Crown: open
(and if you like the cute little colored indications, that's the <hr> tag with the height, width, and color attributes modified, which is strictly do-it-yourself rather than copy/paste from the parent site.) I've way fucking stabilized compared to last year.

Meanings of all that:
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bleeding, Ryoko


Ow. Fuck. Ow. Goddamn. Fuck. Crappity.

Swimmer's Ear.

As soon as I get more coherent in my system, I go to the urgent care place. This is Not Good. Ow. Bleep. OW.


(I sound about like my sixteen-year-old self from the Princess vs. the Bardling era when my ear acts up, except my cussing vocabulary wasn't as advanced then.)
  • Current Music
    cars outside
bleeding, Ryoko

Ear History

Since I was 16 in the summer of 1996, I have had the bad body-habit of suddenly and for no real reason developing nasty cases of swimmer's ear for no particular reason, especially when I'm under stress. The case that summer was in both ears, and caused so much swelling that I was unable to fully close my jaw, which was bad and led to me still having problems with my jaw now.

At 4-ish last night, I noticed that my ear was starting to hurt in that distinctive way, and it was coming on fast.

I woke up about a half-hour ago in pain, and it's already difficult for me to force my jaw closed on that side because it hurts to close the jaw. Touching anywhere near the ear on that side of my face (right side, but it varies each time I get it) hurts. Turning my head hurts. It hurts when it's not disturbed either, but disturbing it hurts it worse.

Fuck. Ow.

I grab breakfast and go, before I'm completely incoherent.
  • Current Music
    ow, ow, ow, ow, ow...
running, bomb tech

Freewill of the Week:

Gemini Horoscope for week of May 12, 2005
Verticle Oracle card: Reality Check Gemini (May 21-June 20)
Larry Colvin, a prisoner in North Carolina's Buncombe Correctional Center, was scheduled to finish his four-month sentence last March 16. But just a few hours before his official release, he escaped. There's no word yet on whether he has been recaptured, but you can bet that when he is, the legal system will return him to jail for more than a few hours. Let this serve as a model for what not to do, Gemini. It would be crazy for you to try to wiggle out of your ongoing ordeal now that you're so close to its end. Endure the remaining time with poise and patience, studying its lessons until the lessons are truly done. It'll all be over soon.
I see little things that give me heart when I'm about to give up, so...
Cancer Horoscope for week of May 12, 2005
Verticle Oracle card: Magic Cancer (June 21-July 22)
It's the Fertile Inquiry time of year for you, Cancerian. The more questions you ask yourself, the better you'll feel. Here are a few to get you started. What do you want to be when you grow up? Are you prepared to start nurturing yourself as well as you nurture others? When will you dismantle the barriers within you that prevent those who love you from loving you with all their power? Are you finally ready to act on the understanding that home is not just a building, but a state of mind, and that you need to work harder to foster that state?

Sagittarius Horoscope for week of May 12, 2005
Verticle Oracle card: Memory Sagittarius (November 22-December 21)
Your fellow Sagittarius Ludwig van Beethoven created sublime music under trying conditions. He was often in poor health, struggled financially, never found love, suffered from depression, and became deaf, yet somehow became one of the greatest composers in history. As you finish up this arduous phase of your own cycle, he's your official role model. Let him inspire you to produce small miracles even in the face of puzzling difficulties. If necessary, resort to what Beethoven often did to stimulate his creativity: Pour a bucket of ice water over your head. It might also help to know that Goethe described our hero as "completely untamed." Do you think that quality had something to do with his high level of attainment?
Sometimes I think you're barking too hard up the wrong tree, love.