Azure Jane Lunatic (azurelunatic) wrote,
Azure Jane Lunatic

Noise-to-content ratio

My noise-to-content ratio has historically been high on the noise; now, with this job again, and plenty of time to write at work, as well as many thoughts on issues of general interest and time to hone those thoughts, I am getting more signal for the noise.

This will not always be the case, but it is possibly a trend.

I'm getting most of my relevant-to-me private thoughts/general ramblings down on paper, and only those that come out when I'm near a computer are getting into LJ. The rest are going into my big three-ring binder of random work-journal stuff, and may some day when I'm very bored be typed up and put on here, but don't count on it.

I write, you see. That's my way of keeping my head on straight. If you deprived me of the ability to get all this stuff out of my head, to write it down, to have some sort of discourse with other people, then I'd go mad. Quickly. It happened slowly last time, but now that the fractures are in place, I'll start talking to myself and answering much, much sooner. These days I don't converse with myself much. It's when I start conversing with myself at length that one is to realize that perhaps I had better have a trained professional ask me what the hell is going on (and it had better be a trained professional that Naomi trusts, and more to the point, that garnetdagger does not mind and that Marah will talk to).

There's still a lot of noise. It's just plugged in other places now, times when I don't have access to LJ. I write in my journal in class, when I'm not taking notes. I write in my looseleaf journal at work between calls. I write on break at work. I compose random things on the bus, while walking. I don't turn off. It's hardwired.

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