Azure Jane Lunatic (azurelunatic) wrote,
Azure Jane Lunatic

I'll wear a smile and walk in the sun

I'm not sure how long it's been going on, but I've been having those not-entirely-happily-single pangs at the sight and thought of particular instances of happy couples being all happily-coupled. (Not to discriminate in my angst -- I'm sure triads and upwards as far as poly groups go would trigger it too, under the right circumstances.)

Relationship stuff is enough of a general issue, though, that I am immensely resistant to the idea of actually getting into one for quite some time in the future. I know that diving in headfirst would get me in so much of the bad kind of trouble. I need more time than this to straighten everything out in my own head. Some of it's going to be psych-time, which means sitting down in self-hypnosis mode and figuring out what the hell is going on and figuring out what the hell I have to do in order to fix it. Some of it is going to be just plain time.

I'm channeling all the angst into a playlist rather than anything more self-destructive. I don't go for emo music -- too depressing -- so even the most miserable items on the playlist are going to have some merit. Some of them are actually cheerful, imagine that.


Crying In The Raina-haEast of the Sun West of the Moon

River LiesSeanan McGuire and FriendsPretty Little Dead Girl

Tears of PearlsSavage GardenSavage Garden

Will Anything Happen?BlondieParallel Lines

Final Fantasy 3 Terra in Black OC ReMixAilseanNobuo Uematsu

Don't Let It ShowThe Alan Parsons ProjectThe Definitive Collection (1 of 2)

You Oughta KnowAlanis MorissetteJagged Little Pill

HallelujahAllison Crowe

Out in the StreetsBlondieNo Exit

Fade Away and RadiateBlondieParallel Lines

Perhaps, Perhaps, PerhapsCake


I Can't Stand the RainThe CommitmentsThe Best Of

RainConcrete BlondeMexican Moon

Angels Of The SilencesCounting CrowsRecovering The Satellites

More Than ThisThe CureThe X-Files: The Album

Title of the SongDa Vinci's NotebookThe Life and Times of Mike Fanning

Driving With the Brakes OnDel AmitriTwisted

Empty ChairsDon McLeanAmerican Pie

Gentle HumFinn BrothersEveryone Is Here

Walking After YouFoo FightersThe X-Files: The Album

Only Happy When It RainsGarbageGarbage


The World Is Not EnoughGarbageThe World Is Not Enough

GalileoIndigo GirlsRetrospective

Why Can't I Fall in LoveIvan NevillePump Up the Volume

Diamonds & RustJoan BaezJoan BaezDiamonds & Rust

I Talk to the WindKing CrimsonIn the Court of the Crimson King: An Observation by King Crimson

Yuutsu Na Seven DaysKinya KotaniHistory P-20

All My Little WordsThe Magnetic Fields69 Love Songs Vol. 1

Head Like a HoleNine Inch NailsPretty Hate Machine

(Or a Heart Attack)Old 97'sStimulus > Response

Goodbye to RomanceOzzy OsbourneBlizzard of Ozz

Boulevard of Broken SongsParty Ben

Never Feel GoodParty BenThe Party Ben Experience

Not A VirginPoeHaunted

King of PainThe PoliceSynchronicity

Leaving New YorkR.E.M.Around the Sun

Everybody HurtsR.E.M.Automatic for the People

Wolves, LowerR.E.M.Dead Letter Office

The One I LoveR.E.M.Document

So. Central Rain (I'm Sorry)R.E.M.Eponymous

Turn You Inside-OutR.E.M.Green


Near Wild HeavenR.E.M.Out of Time

I'll Take the RainR.E.M.Reveal

Drowning in Your TearsThe RembrandtsL.P.

Never Say NeverRomeo VoidRock of the 80's, Volume 2

Broken Hearts of FireSeanan McGuireSeanan McGuire

I Am (The Doppelganger's Song)Seanan McGuire and FriendsPretty Little Dead Girl

For EmilySimon & Garfunkel

Tainted LoveSoft CellRock of the 80's, Volume 2

Hopeless Bleak DispairThey Might Be GiantsThey Might Be GiantsMink Car

Shoehorn With TeethThey Might Be GiantsThen: The Earlier Years (disc 2)

Something's Always WrongToad the Wet SprocketDulcinea

SparkTori AmosFrom the Choirgirl Hotel

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