Relationship stuff is enough of a general issue, though, that I am immensely resistant to the idea of actually getting into one for quite some time in the future. I know that diving in headfirst would get me in so much of the bad kind of trouble. I need more time than this to straighten everything out in my own head. Some of it's going to be psych-time, which means sitting down in self-hypnosis mode and figuring out what the hell is going on and figuring out what the hell I have to do in order to fix it. Some of it is going to be just plain time.
I'm channeling all the angst into a playlist rather than anything more self-destructive. I don't go for emo music -- too depressing -- so even the most miserable items on the playlist are going to have some merit. Some of them are actually cheerful, imagine that.