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http://isiscolo.livejournal.com/419383.html -- interesting discussion on the topic of names.

I don't have so many names now as I used to have.

Before anything else, I was Joanie. I still answer to that first, but not everybody's allowed to call me that.
I'm Joan Laurel $LASTNAME, and it took me a while before I remembered all of it.
Joan is for school and business, and people I know face-to-face who don't rate calling me Joanie or shouldn't call me Azz, or for people who have to address me more formally for reasons of their own.
Joanie Laurel is the "first" and "last" name I use on the internet, when I'm not Azure Lunatic.
Miss or Ms. $LASTNAME is for people who don't actually know me. Rev. $LASTNAME is for people who don't actually know me, but I know a little too much about them because it just downloaded itself into my brain and I need to get it out. It's the ULC kind of Reverend, with a little too much psychic-type insight fueling it. I'm good at seeing how it is, not knowing what needs to be changed to put it like it should be.
Mrs. $LASTNAME is my mother. If you're calling me that, you're probably trying to sell me something.
azurelunatic is for all things online, and for people who know me from online.
Azz is me. I will answer to that face-to-face. I prefer it in some cases.
Azure is not quite me, and I have to think twice before answering to it, even online. It feels uncomfortable in the same way that Joan did before I got used to it.
AL is Paul Simon. (I started going by Azz in chat, because when I went by my full name, azurelunatic, people who were not Betty would call me Al. And that was disconcerting.)
Az is not quite me either -- there's just something about growing up where there are two people who could be abbreviated to Az (Azure and Azalais) that makes one want to differentiate. So I am Azz, and ataniell93 is Az.
Loony/Loonie is me, very much me. hcolleen calls me that. Sometimes she remembers to call me Joanie in front of people who don't know that I answer to Lunatic, but sometimes she doesn't.
I'm likely to call myself Lunatic. "Hey, Lunatic, remember to ____." When I'm narrating myself in my head, I'm Miss Lunatic, or the Lunatic: "Hi, this is the Lunatic. Call me back, 'k?" I also call myself 'Ni. (That one came about when my ex, may he rest in peace1, wouldn't call me Joanie. After the relationship dissolved, I kept the nickname, though I may have a harder time answering to it when people not in my head call me it.)
Rev. Lunatic is that ULC-ordained side of me, online.
Rev. Miss Lunatic is what happens when my IRC connection drops and I connect again before I've pung out.

There are lots of names I used to be. These are ones that I still am.

1 I don't actually know if he's dead, but he's got about that much role in my life, and if I thought he were alive I'd speak ill of him.
Gone away, gone ahead,
Echoes roll unanswered.
Empty, open, dusty, dead.
Why have all the Weyrfolk fled?

Where have dragons gone together
Leaving weyrs to wind and weather,
Setting herdbeasts free of tether;
Gone, our safeguards, gone, but whither?

Have they flown to some new weyr
Where cruel Threads some others fear?
Are they worlds away from here?
Why, oh why the empty weyr?

-- "The Question Song", Anne McCaffrey
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